numb..

alam nio b ung feeling ng wala kang ma-feel..??

oo, tama ung nabasa nio,

feeling ng wala kang mafeel..

ung tipong numb ka nah..??

ewan q kung nafeel nio n yun,

pero aq,

feel n feel q un..

mula nang bumalik "xa" mula sa bundok,

mula nang nagprusisyon xa sa gitna n nakasuot ng itim,,

parang nawala n q sa sarili..

pagkakasuno sunod ng naramdaman ko:

gulat.
saya.
lungkot.
lungkot.
lungkot.
lungkot.
lungkot.


at huli,

kahunghangan..

wala n qng nafeel after that..

naglalakad aq,,

nagluluto,

natutulog o nagbabasa ng libro,

un ang nararamdaman koh..

yung tipong parang may ibang taong nagmamanipula sa utak moh..

hindi mo alam kung pano mo nagawa un dahil kung iisipin,

hindi ka na nakapag isip, at hindi n ikaw ung taong alkala mong ikaw,

pagkatapos mong makita un..

i tried everything to convince myself its ok..

i tried to bargain with God in asking him to PLEASE, IM BEGGING YOU, LEND HIM TO ME FOR JUST FIVE YEARS..

that's all i want; a memory with him..

and after that moment to remember,

God can ressume his original plan for him and ill let him go..

just five years, lord,

five years..

five..